I was unsure if I should share this post or not, because this week I’ve felt really good. But y’all know I like to keep it real on here, so I figured I might as well share.
I’ve been in a bit of a rut lately. I was worried this would happen. I don’t know if it’s the combination of pregnancy and now being a SAHM, or just being a SAHM, but I feel like I’ve lost my inspiration.
Each morning when I wake up, I just feel blah. I’m tired and unmotivated and don’t want to do much of anything. I’ve been trying to figure out how to find my inspiration again because this is so not like me, but I’m just feeling lost.
I trace it back to when I started staying home with Little A. She was struggling with sleeping and I was as well, being pregnant and all. So I was sleeping in as much as I could after she would crawl into our bed at 5:00 in the morning. And it just kind of stuck. Now I struggle to wake up before 7:00 these days. And Little A is waking up around 6:00 or so each morning and coming into our room, instead of sleeping in until her usual 7:00 or 7:30, so I don’t see the point in getting out of bed when I know she’ll wake up any minute and come into our room to cuddle and sleep more. I’ve thought about trying to get up at 5:30 or 6:00, but right now I’m just so tired it’s hard. My goal is to get back to waking up by 6:00, but that’s going to take some time. At this point, I don’t even want to get out of bed half the time, let alone get dressed or do my makeup for the day. I can tell it’s impacting my motivation and my happiness.
And blogging just hasn’t felt the same. By the time we get Little A to bed at night, K and I are so tired we don’t want to do anything. K gets up at 4:30 in the morning for work so he hasn’t been getting much sleep for the past year. In the evenings I blog a little, but then he doesn’t want me on the computer since we barely get to spend time together as is. I hate that even he and I have fallen out of our normal routine. I have post ideas, but when I sit down to write them (or even finish them), I just……blank.
I think part of it is the fact that what previously inspired me no longer does. I no longer go to a job and find inspiration around me all the time. I don’t have co-workers there cheering me on and wanting me to succeed. I just have myself, and I now have to find a whole new form of inspiration and that can be tough. It’s like night and day going from corporate America to full time SAHM.
I really don’t know why I decided to write this post. Probably to hold myself accountable because I know it will get better. I will get better. This blogging community is amazing and so supportive and I know that I can share my feelings with you all and you’ll be supportive. Like I said at the beginning, this week has been really good so far. Baby girl has slept better and I’ve been feeling more motivated and have gotten a lot done around the house. I’m just hoping I can get it to stick and I can get back to my old self. Because feeling uninspired sucks. Big time.
What has helped you find your inspiration and motivation?